Hey everyone~~> WOW!!! It has been a really long time since I actually wrote about me. A whole ton has happened these past few months...all too much at times!  I fell extremely hard for that one and only(or so I thought)!!! I can't seem to ever get him off my mind, out of my head, away from my dreams! But, I don't want him away from all those things! I just want him close to my heart as a friend! (that will never happen) Well I got past loving him. I moved past the tears, the pain! Finally I got over him. YAH FOR SHANNON!!! well then I met the new one.....!!!! well not so new anymore....=( Once again I trusted to much and too fast! I got my heart broke again!Always for a little game!!! Why me??What do I do to deserve this..? Why do I always seem to search for the assholes?!! Oh that one dark thing from long ago came back....I saw him a few weeks ago!!! My heart raced, I clinged, cried a little inside....I miss him but why?? I deffinately don't miss the pain!! Why can't I just let go and forget? Well its part of my past and I need each past action or adventure for the search of who I will eventually become! I need to heal! I need to decifer who the real Shannon is...what I want to be and who I want to become!!! I have decided to give up on boys until my birthday!! (June 21st) I need to realize that I can opperate without a man by my side!!!! ----------------------------- well on another note...Another Christmas went by and now its the New Year...2007!!!!!!!!! I went to Lincoln, Nebraska for Christmas this year....It was really nice to spend some time with my family that I hardly see!! My cousin Graig is about to head back to Iraq or maybe some place else...I wish him all the luck and safety in the world!!! I love you cuz'!! My grandfather is not doing so well but he is a strong willed man!! Please pray that he will be healthy no matter where he may be today, tomorrow or next year! I love you...<3<3 This year was really strapped for money so I was rather bummed out bc I couldn't get everyone the things I really wanted to Sorry everyone...all my friends and family mean the world to me! Hmmmm....Josh is home again!! I miss him so much=( I never really realized how much he means to me until I didn't have him around 24/7.....Crazy how things work out... Finally this semester is over and Monday I start on a clean slate!!!! I MUST do better!! I had extremely bad grades last semester...but eh its a new year, a new start!!!! Good luck to me...ha ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I am not even sure who I am anymore!!! Its scary to me how my life is such a mystery.... Each of us wake up everyday to a new beginning, a new day! Don't let today be the day you regret!! I just want to say thanks to all of the people who have been there for me throughout everything!!! I greatly appreciate each and every one of you!!! Much Love to all*... Shannon | 
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